Late night binge

Well as I mentioned in my last post, I went to bed feeling hungry.  I went to bed early with the intentions of waking up early this morning and running, yay me!  Around 3:30am Phoenix decided to play in the shower, knocking over EVERYTHING and scaring me half to death.  I was wide awake and HUNGRY!!  I laid in bed for a few minutes but couldn't fall back asleep.  I drank some water but my stomach was growling (not loud but loud enough to give me internal justification to eat something).  I got up and grabbed a handful of almonds, nice choice!  Here is where things went wrong...I was craving something sweet.  I wandered in to the kitchen and found nothing (as I made sure to not buy any chocolate for the house).  I opened the freezer and found a tub of frozen cool whip (fat free) and dug in. 

Now it could have been worse, but it could have been better.  I didn't eat the whole thing, but I wish I hadn't picked it up at all.  I went back to bed thinking to myself, its okay, it takes time to adjust and plus, you are running in like 2 1/2 hours so it will be okay.  This is where the night took a second turn for the worse, my iPhone alarm clock FAILED me and did not go off. 

I was woken up by Remi walking around the room at 6:30.  Plenty of time to get ready for work, but not enough time to run.  So now it is 10:15am (I am blogging through out the day, helps me stay focused on the goal)  I am hungry, not starving but being kept alert by the feeling that my stomach might make some noise at any minute.  I'm chugging water, trying to make it to 12:00, although may end up eating my lunch around 11:30 if it gets too bad.  I know this is all part of the adjustment and soon it won't be so bad, but detoxing after eating so many carbs, sugars and drinking way to much wine is tough.  My body wants what it can't have right now!

In search of motivation, and at the request of Karinya, below are pictures of my hands after the workout last Friday.  Yes, they hurt, but surprisingly, they are already pretty much healed up.  Tender but not bad!

If I can push through that and finish the workout, I can stay away from the chocolate and avoid another late night binge!  Another point of motivation, between yesterday and today I'm down 3 lbs.  Think about that, that was likely all water weight I was carrying around because I was eating SOOO bad!  3 lbs, woot woot!  In order to get below 150 in 60 days all I need to do is lose about 11 lbs, totally achievable!  In fact, I think I might need to be a little more aggressive with my goals, I'll make adjustments after seeing where I'm at after the first 30 days.

12:18 - Lunch has been devoured!  A turkey sandwich and half an apple.  I don't feel full, not even close but my stomach is no longer talking to me so that's good.  There is holiday candy EVERYWHERE and even though I know it won't be as good as a piece of amazing dark chocolate, it is tempting!

3:08 - Its funny that I can last a lot longer between breakfast and lunch then I can between lunch and a snack. I'm sure its a mental thing. Anyways, snack consisted of the other half of my apple from lunch, one slice of cheese (1 oz) and 3 almonds. Followed by an entire bottle of water and I'm feeling okay. I read an article about how being on the edge of hunger brings about a certain alertness and readiness. Rather than being stuffed and sluggish, I feel good, fueled and ready for what's next rather than a nap. I think this feeling is ruined by having to continue to sit at a desk all day though....that's another topic though :)

7:56 - Had a second snack right before I left work, applesauce with cottage cheese and 3 almonds.  Took the dogs for a 2.25 mile run when I got home then went to the gym where we did the Crossfit Total, which requires you to find your max deadlift (225), max backsquat (175) and max press (80).  This is also a 6 week challenge where we do it again in 6 weeks and hopefully see some good progress!  I'm sitting at 11 blocks plus a few extra blocks of good fat (avocado and almonds) which is necessary to keep up strength while on this diet.  I feel good right now, I'm going to drink a few more bottles of water and go to bed once again with the intent of NO late night binges!!