Pushing Limits: The big picture

So as of this morning I am down a total of 3.2 lbs. I'll be honest I'm having a hard time being okay with this as I expected to be losing at a faster rate. However, my cheat meal stuck with me for a few days and then the Duck game yesterday didn't help. But I'm looking at the big picture here. In 9 days I lost 3.2 lbs. That's not bad. I haven't even hit the two week mark so I need to applaud myself rather than feel down about it. I'm also struggling because my hip has been bothering me for about 2-3 weeks and yesterday's workout, at 5:30 am, did me in. My hip and upper quad are pretty painful which means I'm taking today and tomorrow off from the gym, completely. I know I can go in and modify the workout, but I know myself and I'll 'try' to see if I can do something which will result in furthering the injury. This scares me because normally I workout 5-6 days a week, even if it's just a run with the beasts.

The thing I'm having the hardest part with? Over the next 2 weeks my schedule is not normal. Birthday parties, company holiday parties, a sunriver trip. All fun things, yes! All things that will be challenges in maintaining my diet, yes! I am going to do my best to control the Sunriver trip by bringing all my own food. I know I'll get grief for not eating what everyone else is eating, but its the only way I can try to maintain some sanity and weight loss without driving myself crazy! I also will be missing a few workouts here and there beyond the ones I'm missing this week because of my hip, so sticking to my diet is going to be even more important.

The part of me that wants instant results is screaming pretty loud right now. This is the destructive part because when I don't get instant results the next thought pattern is, what the hell, I'll eat (insert food here) because it's not like I'm going to lose weight quickly anyways. I am struggling with that part of myself right now because the alternate option, still driven by this part of me, is to not eat today, or not eat very much. Which never works out and ends up in me binge eating later on because I'm so hungry. So I'm having an internal argument with myself right now and trying really hard to stay positive and realize that this is a much longer process than 9 days. Maybe its because the Duck's lost last night which just has me down :)

Anyways, it helpful to put these thoughts down because I can quickly see how ridiculous I'm being. I know I'm not the only person that struggles with these thoughts, but it feels very much an individual battle right now and truly is because its up to me to stay focused and realistic about what I can and should achieve.

So on a totally random note, I need to finish decorating my kitchen. I want to create a little wine nook and I want to hang this on the wall above it, but I don't know what color yet. I can be found on Etsy, here.