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Time for some honesty.  I. GAINED.BACK.WEIGHT.

There it is, out in the open.  I am back up about 5 lbs, rather than being down another 5 like I wanted.  My audition is on Friday and rather than feeling fit and healthy, I am feeling fat and sluggish.  COLD. HARD. FACTS.  This all my own doing, I have been cheating too much, binging too much and not in control of my diet.

Okay, I feel better.  Today I decided I would do a 24 hour fast, but you know what, it isn't working as well this time.  I am STARVING right now.  I'm sure my cubicle world neighbors can hear my stomach.  I ate at 6:30....its only been 8 hours.  I am feeling defeated and think I will end up eating dinner tonight because the point isn't to punish myself, but just get back on track.

I really need to refocus my thinking and find new and exciting things to eat.  Thats all for now, just wanted everyone to know that I am not perfect, far from it, but am refocusing and will evenutally have some "After" pictures...one of these days!